It would have been 10 years yesterday

Yesterday was May 26th, 2011. That would have been Gretchen and I's 10th year anniversary if we were still married.
That thought makes me cringe a bit. I can't fathom what kind of mental state I would have been in had I stayed. I was already an emotional wreck, hanging by a thread.
I swung by Gretchen's house to pick up the razor kit to cut Ian's hair. She seemed to be a bit off and I kinda think she was thinking about the day too.
It makes me sad that I hurt her, but I had to for my own personal health.
I hope one day she really understands that.