It's Christmas. What am I supposed to do?

As mentioned up above, it's Christmas. The flurry of Christmas wishes that bombard me on Facebook make me wonder what I am doing. What does a person do on Christmas? Spend the day with loved ones exchanges gifts and best wishes? 

While I am not technically alone today, I do kinda feel it. Today is the first day in a while that I am feeling in limbo over where my life is right now. It's just another holiday that currently has no meaning and I don't know what to do with it.

With me not knowing what I should do, I went upstairs and grabbed a broom and started sweeping some dust bunnies that I notice awhile back. While sweeping, I popped in some music and started to sing. This is it. This will be my new tradition. Singing on Christmas day. Everything else is moot.

I hope that this time next year, I can look back and be proud of the events of 2012. So much has gone wrong this year and it almost makes me cry thinking about it. I will never forget 2011 though.
A year of growth, life lessons learned and mourning.

Today, I think of you kids. I love you all very much and I hope I can be the best father you could ever ask for. While your mother and I believe very different things, I hope that one day you'll appreciate our two perspectives in life and get the BEST of both worlds. (No pun intended)

I love you.