I learned something from you, so thank you...

Alas, I must end things with Holly. It kinda breaks my heart since I really do like her, but she really lacks the assertive, opinionated and bold person I really need in my life.

If I was a bit more like Brian, I might have gotten along with her really well, but I find her passivity a bit too much for what I need. I don't need to be in control all the time, I don't need to have things my way either, but I do need someone who can offer her opinions and thoughts on a regular basis. I need someone who can challenge me without being selfish like Gretchen was.

So this weekend, I'm going to have to find a way to end it politely. I feel really bad since I really had a good connection with her, almost too comfortable, but I can't see this being long term and healthy.

I really hope Holly finds the person who is right for her, she really is great.

Stupid Grins and Chuck Taylors...

It has happened! I'm so happy about it, I could burst. I finally met a girl that I am genuinely excited about.
I've had the chance to meet a lot of girls and have had the privilege to date some beautiful and wonderful women, however, not one of them has really moved me or excited me up until now.
I've always tried to keep an open mind even though my heart hadn't skipped a beat with these women.
Maybe love is meant to grow and it can be built from nothing...
I wasn't sure.

But now, I know!

Holly...how do I even describe her? She's energetic and youthful, but passionate and insightful. She's lady like and classy, but rocks Chuck Taylors sneakers that just makes me think she's the cutest thing on the planet.
I don't know what I'm going to do, but I've had a couple dates and I'm just addicted to her and her presence. It's ironic, but for the first time in my life, I feel a bit needy. Usually I'm not the one in this position and am saying: "God, give me some space..." but I want to be around her.

I wish I could really identify what it is about her attracts me so, but the feeling of being passionate about another person is just so encouraging. Even if things don't work out, at least I know I'm not a love sociopath. I am capable of having a stupid grin that I can't hide when I'm around a girl...