A cup of coffee, an MRI and three kids

Sometimes I use this blog to help constructively vent on any negative feelings I have bottled up inside. Saying that, I've noticed that I haven't had an update in a long time, which makes me feel like things have been going well in my life - and they have.

For over a year now, I've been seeing Danielle. Things have been going marvelously and I couldn't be happier in finding someone who truly loves me for who I am. I know that I have my personal quirks that may be annoying, but I feel like she's really gotten to see the real me and it okay with it so far.

It's strange being in this relationship and comparing it to what I had with Gretchen. Gretchen is a good person, but we just seemed to clash on a lot things that just happened to be me and her.
So with all that said, my love life is going really well.

I think my biggest concern right now is both my health and you kids. I recently got back from the Doctor, which was LONG overdue. It seems that I will finally get the MRI that I feel like I really need. I've been having headaches for quite a while and I feel like something has been off for quite awhile. I'm not sure how to explain it, but my memory has been really bad along with the fact that I get really irritable quickly. I just feel something I wrong. When I went to the Doctor and explained my symptoms, he too felt that I should get an MRI asap. So that's been lingering on my mind.

On top of that, I'm a bit lost when it comes to you kids. Brighton, you've always been a smart little boy. Smart and quiet. It's really hard to really know what's going on in your head. I try hard to peel away the layers of your thoughts and feelings and I don't know if I'm doing a good job or not.

Elise, you're very sensitive and delicate. Of the three of you, you're the one I feel needs the protection that a Dad needs to offer. I think you feel a bit threatened over Danielle. I'm not sure if it's because she takes some of my attention or that she is replacing Mom, I don't know.

Amelia, you're great. You're just like your Mom. Strong, independent and don't need help from anyone. That will serve you well later in life.

I hope you kids are happy and that I'm doing you guys right.