Things have changed for the better...

Wow. Its been awhile since I last updated. I hate it when it happens since so many BIG things have occurred.
First off, I finally got a job.
Ironically enough, the job I got was the same job that I was ranting about NOT getting in the last blog entry. The employer called me back days later and decided to hire both myself AND the other guy. Go figure.
The job is going okay. It doesn't pay enough for me to live comfortably, but it does cover the bills and that's all that is important.

Let's see...
I have really started working on my friendships and I've managed to start a good social circle. Most of them are in their mid-twenties, but they are good people.
I now have a new best female friend Kate. She's a great girl.
Many of the guys in the social circle have some sort of romantic connection to her, but she's not interested in any of them.
Not to sound egotistical, but I bet she would go out with me if I asked her. But sadly, she just doesn't rock my world.
Jen however; she does. But she is not interested. Unfortunately, its going to cost our friendship since I don't want to be "friends" while I watch her go out with other guys.
So I'm going to peace out and hope she's happy.

I'm feeling like I'm reclaiming a bit of myself now. I'm getting a bit more confident around people and I have no issues expressing how I feel. I'm glad, I've surpressed feelings for too long.
Ironically enough, I've become quite boisterous and animated and I think that I've gotten a lot of respect from the guys for it. I wouldn't consider myself the alpha-dog, but people look up to me.
Someone said that I had an air of maturity and wisdom. Little do they know where I come from...little do they know.

Helen is coming in a few weeks and I'm really looking forward to that! I miss her. It makes me a bit sad that she's not somewhere near, otherwise I'd date the hell outta that...so I'm left struggling with what to do about it. I like Helen, but I have to be realistic with the fact that I can only see her twice a year or so...
I don't know if I can go on like that or not. I may want a real relationship eventually and it may mean I have to break her heart.

Ah well. I'll figure it out.

Besides that, it feels good to be away from Gretchen and my other family. I couldn't deal with the emotional blackmail. I needed my own life and I'm beginning to achieve it.
I need a better job though.