I will never forget Helen W.

I'm a little sad. Helen and I have broken up.
While I kinda knew that in the long run it probably wouldn't work, it still stings a bit since she really has been my best friend through all the messes that have happened this year. She really deserved better than for me to break her heart.

The truth though is that I could never survive another year with the relationship being what it was. I probably should never have let it grow to the point it did, but I couldn't help myself. She really is a great girl and if circumstances were different, I would have really enjoyed dating her.

I think there were just too many nights of feeling alone. I don't mind being single, but I really needed to feel a person's touch more than 5 days every 6 months. I think Helen did too. I would rather end it with the possibility of meeting someone here, as opposed to saving myself for a relationship that would never be.

I hope we can still be friends, but I need to give her time to let her wounds heal. Maybe if I can get my life in order, we can pick up where we left off. I just don't know. Either way Helen, you were great and I thank you for a wonderful year of your life.