Emotional Spring Cleaning - Accomplished!

So last night I had a confrontation with Jen over some stupid antics. I could have let the whole thing blow over and just let her leave, but I'm done with that whole secret resentment scene.

Around 9:30PM last night she called my cell. If there's one thing that you can count on like clockwork, it's that women talk. Add to the fact that Kate and Jen are friends, I was counting on that fact that Jen would hear about me being upset over the night before's events.

I was a bit conflicted, but I decided to not answer the phone.

After a few minutes, I logged on Facebook and saw she was on. I sent her a message:

"Did you call?"

She replied:

"yeah"
"you ok?"

So she knew. But I was going to let her really think this one through before she opened Pandora's Box.

"Yeah, why?"

This was the part where I wanted to her to acknowledge my anger.

"its just you left yesterday without saying bye to me ??"

Nice try dear, but you're gonna have to do better than that, admit that you heard from Kate I was pissed.

"So I guess we both don't have to play dumb here..."

"I think you know."

"You're a clever girl."

Then came the million dollar question:

"I guess its to do with LeRon and I?"

"Right?

Release the Kracken! In the most respectful, but firm way possible I expressed my disdain over the situation. She played the oblivious card with me like she had no idea I would feel this way, but I wasn't going to let her off that easy. I don't blame her for living her own life, but I refused to be an emotional punching bag and that I deserved honesty as opposed to "I didn't want to hurt you, so I decided to subliminally chip away at your own self-respect."

The conversation got heated, but I wasn't going to back down on how I felt. I had been lied to, I had given the best parts of me to her and she loved the attention. But that was it.

We got each other upset, but in the end I think we were able to reconcile. She desperately wanted to remain friends since she valued my friendship, which is ironic how they say that after they kick you in the stomach, but I made it clear that while we could be friends, it wasn't going to be the same since I had to protect my own dignity. She understood. Maybe.

After I got off of Facebook, I felt better about myself. I took a stand for conduct that I wasn't going to tolerate anymore. My Emotional Spring Cleaning has begun and everything I had for Jen is being taken out with the trash.

It was time to get some positive going in my life. So I finally asked Emily out on a date. She accepted. So I am going to see her both Friday night at Jen's birthday party and then we'll have a date night on Saturday. I am looking forward to seeing Emily, she seems like a nice girl and has had life hand her a few blows as well, so maybe she won't be in the mood for stupid games. Good. I hate those games.