Brain, you are getting annoying and it's messing with my life!

For a person who lives with his heart on his sleeve, I think way too much. Many times, it has served me well.
Stephanie has complimented me numerous times saying that I'm the most mature and level headed man she's ever met, but...it's a two-edged sword.
With as much as I think, I have also talked myself out of doing a lot of things that maybe I should have just followed my heart and done.

Ironically enough, Helen and I are in the process of getting back together. It's funny, I'm one of those people that once I've analyzed a situation enough and made a decision, I follow through. However, with Helen, I made the decision that we wouldn't be able to make a relationship work without really letting her say her peace.
As I result, I broke her heart without her fully understanding the problem.

When the events of last week happened, I felt something I wasn't expecting. I was really taken back with myself and decided to analyze why I felt the way I did.
As a result, we ended up talking the next morning after I wrote my last angry blog. She was taken back that I was so upset and she realized that I did still have feelings for her. She wanted to salvage the situation and honestly, I realized I did too.

What does that mean? I don't know yet.

I feel like I do love her, but logistics have always been a problem. I do want to try and make this work since we do get along very well and I go have great affection for her, but a piece of me just worries...
I hope that I'm just thinking too much again. Either that, or I'm paving the way to breaking her heart...again.

Whatever happens, I want to make sure that we're both making the decision and not because I'm just thinking too much.