Just another rant for another day.

Today I'm a little frustrated. Holly, if you are reading this blog, you might not want to continue as it's about you and I'm going to go on a self-authorized rant.



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Maybe I'm being an idiot. Brian and I got into a small verbal tiff the other night talking about this idea of me getting into a possible long distance relationship. He doesn't like them, and that's okay.
But he was insistent on sharing his unsolicited opinions about how it wasn't practical in his eyes and that I probably shouldn't hold my breath. It was just another case of Brian and I disagreeing.

Ironically enough, at that same moment, Holly texted me lamenting on why she was thinking about me. It was nice to talk to this Holly, since her defenses were probably lowered a bit by drink. I've been really wanting more one on one time with her lately since we really only dialogue via Facebook.

Brian mentioned earlier that evening that he was talking to Holly about how "guys don't like talking on the phone." which I thought was silly. But then after thinking about it, Holly and I really only communicate via text and Facebook...which got me thinking:

"Does she think I don't like to talk on the phone?"

As a result, I tried to get Holly to commit to a time to talk on the phone. Her schedule is always all over the place with things going on all the time, but I was happy to hear that I would be able to speak with her while she was driving to Gardiner to see an old friend.
We did talk for a little bit, which was nice but signal loss kinda cut the call a lot shorter than I wanted to. Because of that, we decided that we would talk again on Sunday.

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Today is Sunday. Around 10am I called Holly just to see when she would have time, but I heard nothing. I feel like I sat around watching the clock wondering when she would call.
There's just nothing worse than seeing the time pass and that it's no longer a matter of "when", but "if" she would call.

She didn't.

Was my day wasted? No. But I do feel really unimportant today. I HATE that feeling.
All I got was silence and that silence was deafening.

I did get a message from Holly tonight on Facebook though. WHY IS IT ALWAYS FACEBOOK? Could I have gotten a call instead? She said her day didn't go as planned and couldn't find time for a call.

I just feel like I'm the only one that feels like this could work and it's irritating me today.