A shot in the arm.

Man, I've been writing a lot lately. Must be in a very reflective mood.
I'll be leaving back for Maine here tomorrow, but this trip was very much needed.
Seeing my father again was a good shot in the arm. He could tell something was off, so we sat over some Chinese and I vented a bit over everything that was going on. It felt good since I just don't have that in Maine.

It was really good to be back in the office. Stephanie and Betty were thrilled to see me and having a tight hug from the both of them really made me feel important and loved. I missed them.
Dave was up to his usual antics and had me laughing within 30 minutes of being there. While the office floor is now crowded and messy, I do miss it.

I had my yearly review with Todd and that went really, really well. He was really happy with my work and these past couple weeks, I've gotten a lot of recognition for my work efforts which made me feel appreciated.

Brian is coming into town this coming Saturday, but I won't see him for a couple days. I'm kinda wondering what is going through his head. I think he really wanted us to be able to get together with other people for Christmas, but I don't think it going to happen.
Ahhh well Brian, it's just as it always has been...you and me.
Maybe we'll just hit the pubs together and just enjoy the time we have. I think he also wants to see the Hobbit too, so I have to arrange that.

Other than that, I feel better. It's good to be here in Colorado again and though I'm leaving, I think this was what I needed to keep on' keepin on'.

I'm going to see Holly this Saturday evening, provided she gets better. The flu is flying around in Maine and Colorado and I feel like I'm trying to dodge both storms. God I hope I don't get it...

I still don't know what to do with her.
She's a hard read now when at one time she was an open book. I miss that.
My thoughts linger around her and sometimes I just want to smack myself and wish I was like every other guy that could just move on and bang some random and get over it.

Me and my frickin standards. They ruin everything.